Million Reasons - Lady Gaga + One Thousand Times - Hamilton Leithauser and Rostam

I haven't asked why I made that decision
Idk
Still, don't know
That I also have asked myself for hundred times why I love this guy so much

and the answer always still the same,
like I love to look at the way he looks,
or how his small eyes on his face
or his smile
or his smell
or the way he talks
or the way he made bad jokes
or the way he touches my hair
or the way he being so selfish, heartless, crumpy, and so kind
or his gentle eyes every time he looks at me speechlessly
or the way he hurts me
or... everything... I guess

I found that I need to love myself more, that... I may deserve more love from him
But when things come, and "it" happens... I just immediately throw everything away, every single thing to love him.
Like no way to escape, no way that I can run away from that man.
that everything belongs to me are willing to be used by him. Hopelessly.

I have a dream, that you were mine. A thousand times... for thousand times...

I've ever thought how much I love him equal to how weak I am.

Imagine that how I need him so much in my life, that I'm depending on him so much, and how possible he may leave me alone... and how I gonna collapse... How vulnerable I gonna be... How depressed I am being... How much pains I gonna get...

One more time... or just Over and Over.

Everything may be just a dream...
And I still have to wake up
Back to reality.