Hurricane - Halsey

It hurts

With irrational thoughts 

And my own distortion

That's how he told me.

But It still hurts 

When you know your darling still care and feel uncomfortable about her.
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Understanding doesn't mean I don't feel anything... Or I'm not supposed to feel sad or get mad.
That I should be generous, take a rest, clear my mind, accept the fact, not asking anymore,

To be with him.

My friend said, give this rela more time, be patient,

I do know it.

My friend said, It was your choice, you have to clear your mind,

I do know it.

Diabetes said, It's just his past stuff. You're supposed to understand him and sympathize with him. You should be. Accept it.

I do know, I really do. 

He said, It's not that important. Why you just keep it? I said that It's just my flashback. I just need more time. Can you give me some sympathy?

I do know, I really do. 

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Then I guess I have no rights to ask for something, like my feeling.
Then I wonder who would understand me.
I do not dare to feel sad or get painful because It's going to put pressure on him.

He has enough pains so I should not give him anymore... Should I?

I should not say anything 'cause ain't things change.

And Nothing changes.

I know that he would say sorry. And things still the same.

First, I talk to myself, 

"You should not ask too much. At least he loves you back. At least you're still with him. That's enough."

But I want more, I guess, to be only and one. 

I think I deserve it, and ...  Maybe I'm being so greedy and selfish. 

Second, wait, just wait. 

"I'm a wandress

I'm a one night stand

Don't belong to no city, don't belong to no man."

                                                                                                    _to free my soul.