I'm drowning in thought of you - RLIFE

Missing someone is painful.

It likes something's stuck inside and chewing it...

But what is ''it''?

Not my heart, definitely

The face of my mom
The smile of my dad
Or the way my sisters stare at me

Yup, definitely

I remember there were a few times, we were sleeping, next to each other.

Usually in the afternoon... Well My sleep can up to 4 hours... It doesn't matter now...
Sometimes I woke up before him or most of time, I guess.
I saw his face, when he closed his eyes... Well, yah, I do think it looks dumb dumb, but handsome... Or cute... Or stuff like that... But dumb dumb...

I like to hide in his arms, just ask: "Does it hurt you? Too heavy?"
"No, you're good." Then he quickly covered me, forced my face into his chest and fell asleep.
I smell him, clearly and fully happy.
It was like, I belong to him. Like I'm his girl.

Time flew slower, streaming slightly from my fingers, each little finger.

I touched his face, his eyebrows, his eyelashes, his lips, his cheek, his nose, etc... Every single thing on his face...

It makes me feel like he was mine, completely mine, but no one else.

Like in this world, he belongs only to me.

And yah, I know that I love this guy.

I love him so much.

Every time I see his face and hear his voice,

The warmth spreads from my heart and flows into the air...

I like the way he holds my hand, and how our fingers twisted to each other...

His worrying for me,

When he being grumpy because of me,

Or when he smiles,

Tears just come out easily, then...

Idk

I can't see him

Neither touch, or smell...

Or hear...

Or do anything...

Well, so far but so close...

Just falling
Drowning
Laying
And think of you, darling.