Starring role - Marina and The Diamond Role

I thought I almost reached my limit
I did not
But I know my limit does exist
Somewhere else

And whenever I touch it
Everything would fall apart.

I can see me in the mirror
Tired
Exhausted
Hollow
Limited

Sometimes I look at him like a stranger... But hell
How can you cry for a stranger
How can you love a stranger
And why you keep drawing that stranger in craziness....

At last
I just keep looking at me in the mirror.

The matter is,
He still loves me so much
And do I
Blindly and badly love him

Then, everything seems impossible to escape

I did think so many times should I end up this relationship
But I just can't let him go
No matter how he treats me or how much we hurt each other

That I can't imagine the moment truly lost him or he may belong to someone else than me
That he should be mine forever,
No matter how long does it take...

But I am
really tired.

Some days, I don't want to see him, for what he has done to me

everything

all those pains, all those scars, all those tears, through day and night

I just know, 

I found my dead body drying in the bed, fading with the numb eyes,

keep asking myself, 

"Do I deserve these pains?"

"Why do I have to suffer like this?" 

... 

I haven't received any answers yet, and the ceil stills look at me. 

Some days, I was at the bottom of the gulf, 

the fear of being abandoned by him always nagging me 

I never feel safe, I never feel loved enough

either trusting...

craving for love, I thought I was a loser I've ever known 

A lovesick

I lose myself when he calls my name...

Ridiculously,
I can't live without him
So better be tired than breathless.

I don't know
I don't know why I love that man so much
To let myself gradually collapsing...

Hell, I'm so stubborn aren't I...
Better no ending
Better never escape from each other

...

Right?